I found out today OVER FACEBOOK that my best friends sister has breast cancer.
First I heard of it.
Then I realise I have neglected everyone.
I have barely spoken to the people who are supposed to be my best friends.
My only friends.
And its not just people from home, its old friends, old pao friends, aquaintances, new friends.
I just don’t know how to socialise anymore.
I claim its because I have been so busy, but when I am honest with myself I find that I never really wanted to make the effort.
I am so shit. I am the most pathetic excuse for a friend ever.
I am selfish and horrible.
That is all.
And if you are one of those I have ignored I am so very sorry.
Basically…
I interned with a fashion label for LFW.
After they offered me a job.
I went to New York
I came back and started work.
Now I have no life.
I got better food wise for a bit.
Maybe to do with needing food when i lost a lot of blood from being on my period for 2 months (stupid arm implant contraception)
Now I hate myself, and I gained like 10lbs.
I will lose the 10lbs.
I will not eat.
I am feeling depressed again.
My mum has had bad headaches for a month and has been sent for an MRI.
I am thinking the worst.
She upgraded to private medical insurance for the family.
Maybe now I can get treatment if things get bad again.
I am moving house in like 2 months.
I am still with my clueless boyfriend.
I am obsessed with The Hunger Games.
I dyed my hair blonde with lilac ends today.
I hope you liked my summary.
I will try and be back.
basically its £10 a month plus p+p and they send you 5 samples of beauty products.
Its like a Glossy Box or Boudoir Prive box but I prefer the high end brands with this one.
